Who’s Your Fledgling Horror Author?

So this has been a really hectic day. One of those days that get you frazzled beyond repair, EARLY! But that is beside the point. At present I find myself needing to get back to my center, relaxed and in the mood for the awesome creativity that is going to happen today.

Because(!) today is the day I finish writing the first draft of Desolation.

I am not sure about my fellow writers, but I find the time between the first draft and the second draft, things change considerably. Sometimes to the point that the story no longer resembles what was written in the first draft. Is this a problem everyone faces, or is it that I am writing the story before it is completely realized?

Whatever the reason, later is better than never I guess. Desolation has gone from a typical zombie novel to something much deeper. For this I am very grateful. But I am skeptical that I am writing horror well enough. This is the first time I have written horror, and I don’t think my mind works the same way some of the masters’ do. Of course I don’t know any of the masters, but I can only assume they have black altars set up in their writing space, not a sunny, cheerful atmosphere like mine is. Long story short, I don’t feel like I can write horror, but I am giving it a try.

I will do what I always do, I am setting up a critique group for Desolation and we will go over it once the second draft is done. We will get it in ship shape (what does that even mean?) and then it will be off to publishers and agents. I am not spending a lot of time on them though, because I want to get this book out of my hands and into my reader’s hands as fast as possible, and constant rejections won’t get that done.

So here we go. Plunging into my last 3 hours of my day job, and then into my dream job to finish one hell of a tale for all of you!

(Note: If you are a friend or fan of mine on facebook and are interested in critiquing Desolation, let me know by message. Wanna know more about Desolation? Visit here.)


New Faces to an Old Menace

It is good to know that some photo’s still survive of what a vampire used to mean. Even when they started appearing beautifully, like in Anne Rice’s novels, you still knew what lurked underneath. This:

Now lets see how they romanticize zombies . . . never mind, after a cursory google search, zombie romance pictures are just as disturbing as you would expect them to be . . . for now.

Wherein Horror Lies

For weeks now I have been wondering why nothing I read or watch on TV scares me. Don’t get this confused with me saying nothing scares me because things do. I get scared by things that actually happen to me and random bumps in the night. The idea of zombies scares me, and even watching Walking Dead scares me, but little else scares me.

I have been wondering for a while now why I don’t get more frightened, or why I would consider some horror movies and books more paranormal than horror. With this question I really started a quest into what constitutes horror and what doesn’t. I have gotten a few ideas as to what is horror and what it isn’t, so then I started looking at how I view each element that comprises horror.

I think it has to do with detachment. When I was younger I could totally delve into a book to the point that I felt the things author’s were describing happening to their characters. I could feel every swell of magic, every tide of emotion. As I get older I find less and less that a book can really strike those chords any longer. I am unsure if it is the writing or if it is my mind, but I don’t really get into books like I used to, despite my love of books.

Then last night I was re-watching True Blood and as Lorena and Bill made out on a blood soaked bed, blood pumping from the gaping hole in a womans neck beside them, it came to me. I have been desensitized to horror from the games I have played and the movies I have watched. Over time it went from “Dear lord, someone help that woman!” to “Yeah, more vampire sex and more blood. . . .” to the point that I don’t consider those images horrifying any longer.

So what scares me? Not gore, that is for sure. I think what scares me the most, and what I consider horror is the psychological. Frailty scared the wits out of me because it showed mental illness, or righteousness, you didn’t know. You couldn’t tell if the main character was really screwed up, or if he was doing the work of a higher power, riding the world of darkness.

The Devil’s Advocate scared me as well, because we saw what would happen to the main character if he chose one thing, but then at the end he chose the other. Then we realized, no matter what he chose, he was still going to go through everything we had seen before. It was inescapable.

Following the inescapable, zombies terrify me because of this very thing. No matter where you go, they are there. You can’t get away from them, because as soon as you think you do, they will come chewing through the door of your cabin in the middle of the woods because they smell you or whatever.

People like being scared, but I don’t think there are many people now that can scare us because we have gotten to a point where we are harder to scare. Why is that? Is it because of science explaining away so many myths and legends we have long thought had supernatural origins? Is it because everything we are forced to see on the news and other media venues have shown us that we are living with real life monsters? I am not sure, but I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas on the topic.

Would the Real Necromancers Please Stand Up?

So it is largely aggravating to me that I try to find any information necromancy and necromancers and all I can find is a bunch of BS; children playing at being bad*ss. Grow up and understand that any REAL necromancer would scare the sh*t out of you.

That being said, I don’t know HOW a real necromancer would scare the sh*t out of you, because I can’t research anything about them because you are clouding up the search engines with your rediculous tripe about nightmares and dripping blood into water to divine the future.

If anyone has any respectable source for necromancy, can you please help a poor writer with his research?

I can create a whole load of necromancy stuff that sounds cool, but I like to be inspired by real material.

Writing Emotions

I seek to do one thing when I write. I seek to write a single moment, how the breath feels between lovers lips, how music courses through our being when a song strikes a chord with our past. I seek to express a first meeting, the gentle rocking of a lovers embrace, and the salty taste of loss.

When I put finger to keyboard, I am not writing about a character or an event. Take a zombie apocalypse, a nuclear holocaust, or a frenzied dragon and you will find one overall theme: humanity in all its colors, be it hateful, loving, crazed or complacent, for when we lose our humanity is when the darkness wins.

I See Zombies Everywhere

It is a good thing I live in the country, because when crazies come this way, it is in the form of “accidental” hunting attacks.

But this stuff is crazy! I have been reading the news today, and think maybe my original zombie post should have waited until today. I mean . . . damn.

This isn’t exactly zombie related, but insane all the same. This man in Northern New Jersey could certainly have spread the disease when he stabbed himself repeatedly and then threw bits of his skin and intestine at police officers! Yuck!

Then a man in Maryland admitted to hacking his housemate to pieces, then eating parts of his heart and brain! I mean I know this happened in ancient cultures, but normally the person was already dead right?

The mother of the man (Rudy Eugene) who ate the face of the man in Miami says her son wasn’t a zombie, he was a nice kid that did good things and he could have been subdued with a taser rather than gunfire. I do believe not even a few rounds stopped this kid from chowing down! How the hell is a taser going to stop him? Tasers don’t stop zombies! O.o

Rudy’s girlfriend continued by saying he would never have done that, it was his body but not his spirit. He was a god fearing man that knew his bible by heart. To me it sounds like a zombie attack!

This is all very disturbing to me.

Scott Talan is quoted here on CNN by saying “this is all nothing new,” bad things happen and people are attracted to bad news. I am sorry, but this is the first I have heard of a slew of people cannibalizing en mass.